Hey y’all! I’m not the best communicator when it comes to truly expressing myself verbally, but I have always found joy and satisfaction through writing. I am so thankful that I was blessed with this gift. It’s honestly a miracle that I have time to type this right now (actually I don’t. It’s currently 2:04am so I made time, but don’t tell mom). I just really felt led to share some things with anyone willing to read! This semester has been amazingly wonderful, stressful, inspiring, and annoying all at the same time. Seriously.
About this time every week or so, I start digging up several photos from Facebook, Instagram, etc. in hopes of narrowing it down to the perfect, Instagram-worthy “Throwback Thursday” picture. Silly, I know.
This one just happened to be the one I chose to post.
Senior Homecoming. September 23rd, 2011
As usual, I went through the motions: opened the Instagram app, pressed the camera button, found the picture in my photo album, tested every editing option to see which best highlighted my features (hefe of course), then arrived at the dreaded “write a caption…” screen. Well, uhhhh…what now?
Holy flashback. It honestly feels like this picture was taken a whole lifetime ago. I couldn’t help but reflect on that day and other high school memories.
Last year at this time, I wanted to be back at LHS SO bad, I missed it all. The Friday Night atmosphere, Kojack, the ringing of the famous “bell”, cheering so loud that I lost my voice, our amazing football team, the state championship game, senior privileges, Sandy Sigmon, Ms. Clark, Mr. Cather, yearbook staff, Student Advisory Council, friendships, relationships, the NYC trip, and graduation.
I definitely cherish all of those memories, and am thankful for such a wonderful high school experience than not everyone has. Looking back, now 2 years later, those four years were truly a blur. Since then, I have learned and grown so much. The ‘girl’ in this picture was in her own comfortable, and somewhat close-minded bubble. She was selfish, prideful, and a huge people pleaser. Now, I’m not implying that I regret the person I was throughout those years, but I definitely had some wrong intentions.
Making the transition to college wasn’t the slightest bit easy. Coming from being a “big fish in a small pond” to an extremely small fish in an extremely large pond was a total slap in the face that I hadn’t exactly prepared for. I was used to knowing every person I passed on the way to class but now, I didn’t know a soul. I used to consider over half of my senior class as friends but now, I had about 4 friends (3 of which were from Lincolnton).
I wasn’t depressed, but nothing felt right. My ‘perfect’ high school reputation certainly didn’t follow me as I had hoped. I didn’t walk around with a smile on my face 24/7, my compassion for others was suddenly nonexistent, and I had completely lost my desire to learn and succeed academically. I simply just wasn’t “Abbey” anymore. Why? I didn’t let Christ use me. I can honestly count on one hand the number of times I utilized my spiritual gifts during the whole 8-9 months of my freshman year. I refused to step out of the 15 by 12 dorm room I called my ‘comfort zone’.
However, this year has been a totally different story! I feel my excitement building up as I type this. First of all, I convinced my lovely parents to let me live in an apartment with my very first friends. Although we get on each other’s nerves, I am thankful to live with 2 wonderful ladies. There is never a dull moment when we’re together! Also, (here comes the big part!) I decided to search for an organization that I could truly feel welcomed to, comfortable in, and receive accountability from. Through lots of prayer, I found just that and so much more. The ladies of Sigma Alpha Omega Christian Sorority are absolutely incredible. I can’t even tell you how continuously blessed I am by each and every one of them. I have never came in contact with so many young women earnestly seeking after God’s heart. I am beyond excited to officially become a sister THIS SUNDAY after almost 3 long months of the candidacy process! I could not ask for a better support group to grow in faith and share these precious years with.
Along with SAO, I have had the privilege of being in wonderful classes led by professors who know their stuff. I have never had so many projects and papers at once, but it has been worth every all-nighter. The knowledge I have gained and the skills I’m developing will be tremendously helpful in my future classroom.
2012 and 2013 have been extremely significant years in my early adulthood. For me, college has allowed opportunities for spiritual, emotional, and intellectual growth. I still struggle with the same things I have my whole life, but my perspective has completely shifted. Since the picture above, I have gained independence, confidence in my abilities, developed new passions, and have been able to make my faith my own. Jesus Christ, the One true constant in my life, deserves all of the glory, honor and praise forever!
One thing remains!